Because we held hands...Dear Father,
I wish to ask you again. How did you court my mother back then?
Whenever I ask her, she would just go on ranting and tell me that she doesn’t exactly know how the two of you ended up together. I guess she’s still angry at you after all these years. So that’s why I am asking the same question to you, hoping to get an answer.
But I guess you won’t be able to answer it either.
Why do I want to know, you ask?
Well, the truth is, Father, someone finally decided to court your little girl.
Sounds impossible right? It’s been months and I still think that all of this could just be a dream. But it feels nice, Father. For once, someone finally noticed me.
It’s been around 4 months (around a week before Christmas) when I first met him through a common friend. It turns out that he studied in the same university, under the same building, and joined the same school organization (This is a conspiracy. I could feel it.). We, together with my friend and her boyfriend, went to the mall to attend a convention and buy some anime stuff there.
Physically, he was about 2-5 inches taller than me, a bit dark skinned, and has a bigger-than-average body built. (A far cry from my college crush whom I fell for a couple of years back.) He was a really funny and energetic guy, and he kept striking up a conversation with me all night. It felt strange, for me to feel suddenly at ease with a guy whom I just met. And that I enjoyed the whole evening because I was with him.
I really didn’t want to jump into conclusions, like I did before. So I tried not to think too much about him and focused on the activities Christmas had in store for me. It worked, for that moment, but when the New Year arrived, I found myself thinking about him again.
Why am I like this to someone I had just met? I kept asking myself. Nobody answered, of course. But I bet that God was grinning down on me during those days.
Days passed and I went on with life. With my permission, our friend gave him my Yahoo Messenger ID so we could chat online. We began to talk of anime and of Aura Perpetua, which he had started to read after clicking the link on my YM status message.
And the next thing I know, he’s inviting me for a date on Valentines’ Day.
I tried to keep my composure as I typed back my acceptance to his invitation. In my mind, I was dancing in delight. Finally! Finally! Finally! Someone is asking me out for a date! I thought. It was something I’ve always dreamed of doing during Valentines’ Day, and now, because of him, it was coming true.
It was fun while it lasted, Father. I enjoyed three firsts that day. My first ever Valentines’ Day date and my first time to try Ice Skating. We were both novices to Ice Skating and had fun trying to keep our balance and our sanity…
And it was also the first time somebody sang a song dedicated to me.
I really enjoyed that day, Father. It also gave us a chance to know more of each other and find out that we have a lot of things in common. Conversations were endless. And when it was time to go home, he volunteered to accompany me, even if it would mean that he would have to ride an equal distance back.
And since then, we have been keeping our conversation lines open between us.
Well, Father. I guess by now you have guessed that I’m beginning to like this guy.
Truth is…
Yeah. I really like him.
But I haven’t told him that yet. Even if he already told me that he loves me about a hundred times now.
Because I wanted to be really sure, of him, and of my feelings for him.
I don’t want to make the same mistake I did before.
And I don’t want to end up making the same mistake that you and my mother did.
So I guess… those are my reasons why I’m making him wait.
But I hope… I dearly wish… that he would wait.
Because…
It would be all worth it.
…
I really wish I could see your reaction to this letter right now. If you were like the father in the movies, this would be the point where you would go ballistic and prevent me from seeing him and all that drama.
Actually, I wish that you could meet him as well.
Someday, Father. I know. God will make a way. You will get to meet this person who promised to make my life happy.
Sincerely yours,
Your daughter who has already grown up.
